Love and Perfection (2)

           LOVE AND PERFECTION (2)


        So….. I got a couple of questions as regards the last post and i know I’m going to get many more on this. I already had a picture of what this post was going to be about but I needed to summon courage to put it up and guess who’s finally showing so much courage, me!  Also, we treated a topic in criminal law class; sexual offences and I got to discover many loopholes in the laws guiding this but that is a topic for another day, anyways, that gave me the motivation I needed to put this up.  This is the next story but our character remains the same, our very own Ruth. She is just a perfect example of one who has been  redeemed by God’s love. Ruth would have never thought that one could harbor so much love for her, that one could feel so greatly about her the way God does, like she always says, it’s a love affair!  She could never have imagined that she would be able to give out so much too but thank God for His grace, indeed it is true that you automatically have a mantle to help others wherever  the devil has hurt you.
     So our story begins,  Ruth had left Aunt Susan’s place when this happened. She was already staying with mom, it was a holiday, she told her mom she wanted to spend it with her uncle (mom’s brother) and his family because she immediately fell in love with them when she went visiting. Her mom agreed, she knew them to be nice people so, she saw no harm in itAs at this time, she was ten years old.
    It was great, all she did most of the time was sleep, eat and watch tv until that f afternoon it started. Her uncle as usual had gone to work and her aunt had gone out too with her little son, so she was home alone with her aunt’s niece, Titi who had come for the holiday too and a guy they both called ‘uncle Ray’ (lets call him that because she can’t remember his name now and she didn’t even know the relationship he had with the family) because he was at least 20 years older than they were.  Before that day, she had noticed that Ray was always looking at her in a funny way, she had caught him staring at her several times and he always gave her a scary smile. Titi had noticed too and they both did not like him. Titi did not hidethe fact that she did not like him, she was always rude to him but Ruth wasn’t one to hurt people’s feelings intentionally, she still isn’t, so she was nice to him even though he scared her.
Now, our story is about to get serious. That afternoon, she was in the sitting room with Titi but she left to get something in the room (she can’t remember what it is now), Ray walked in with that annoying smile on his face, looking like he was going to swallow her. He bolted the door, she at that instant knew he was up to something very terrible, she cowered back in fear, and he made to grab her but suddenly changed his mind. He unlocked the door, turned back and told Ruth that he liked her because she was a very nice girl and then walked out.  It was at the instant that sheknew something very terrible was going to happen but she didn’t know who to tell and she also found it very difficult to confide in people, she just didn’t know how to tell people things especially the very important matters.
 Fast forward to a few days later, Ruth was asked to go get some clothes on the line, she was about to open the door when she felt someone grab her from behind, it was Ray. She very easy to lift up because she was so tiny, he carried her up with just one hand, pulled her close to him and covered her mouth with the other. Because he was so big and she was tiny, that hand not only covered her mouth but her nose too, she was suffocating, he touched her everywhere, she struggled, he forced his mouth on hers, she bit him, she was trying hard to escape from him when her aunt called out her name. he immediately let her go and threatened to kill her if she told anyone he had come on to her, he brought out a pen knife from his pocket and said he was going to slice her throat with it if she even said a word concerning it. She was very scared, if he could have tried that with everyone at home, she didn’t want to imagine what he would do if she was left alone with him. Her mom called that night as usual to check on her, Ruth didn’t know what stopped her from asking her mom to come get her, if it was the beautiful face of her aunt, the sweet voice of her cousin or if she was under a spell. She told her mom all was well and that she was enjoying her holiday even though that had stopped earlier in the day. The next day, Ray’sfiancée came around, she was so pretty and nice. Ruth found it hard to believe that someone that nice would be getting married to him. She overheard them discussing with her aunt that Ray would be leaving the next week because they had finally found a nice apartment and he had a  good job. Ruth felt so happy, like the torture was going to end because she couldn’t walk freely in the  house in fear that he’ll try to hurt her again and the annoying stares were getting creepier. Two days later, Titi, whom she loved to call her bodyguard left and she got even more scared.
    It finally happened, her uncle, aunt and her cousin were sleeping in their room, she was watching tv and felt sleepy, she thought she was the only one awake. Shewas on her way to her room when he grabbed her, she struggled but he was too strong, he brought out that pen knife again and said he was going to use it on her if she made a sound. He laid her down on the cold floor, she looked up at him and all she could see was that annoying smile. She was not scared, she stopped struggling maybe because she already saw it coming, she just wanted him to get done with it but surprisingly he turned her on her back, pulled down her skirt and ripped out what was left. He then told her he was going to do it through her back so nobody would notice much if at all anything came up.  She did not struggle, she was in so much pain, and the pain she was felt on her inside was more than what she felt from the damage that his fingers in her were causing. Her heart hurt more than her body did, it felt like it was on fire and like it was going to burst at the same time.  She felt like she was dying inside, she could not stop the tears, he touched her everywhere and kept telling her it was her fault he was being like that with her, she felt violated. It went on and on and on for what seemed like forever but it finally stopped.  She was in so much pain, the tears did not stop for even a second, she struggled to pull herself up, he stood there watching her struggle to even stand. He then went into his room,  that smile never left his face.  Ruth had to crawl into her room, she then went into the bathroom, she was bleeding, she never made a sound.  Her mind was blank, she did not feel hatred for him, she did not even feel anything at all. She triedto stretch out on her bed, she could not even do that properly and the tears  continued to flow, in no time, her pillow was soaked and sfew he did not know when she fell asleep.

       The next morning, Ruth’s aunt came in to wake her, she woke up screaming and struggling with her aunt until she realized who it was. She wanted to know what was wrong but Ruth said she wasn’t feeling well and she was in bed all day, .  Two days later, she was passing by her aunt’s room when she overheard her conversation with Ray. Her aunt told him that she had noticed him looking at Ruth in a very funny way she did not like, she said she wanted him to leave or she’ll report him to her husband. He tried to argue with her, he feignedannoyance but this did not move her aunt. Ruth just had to smile, it was already too late, he had satisfied himself. Ray came out and saw her, that smile returned again, he moved out the next day and the annoying smile never left his face. She did not say anything to him, she hadn’t said a word to him since that night.

       Our dear little Ruth experienced terrible things as a child, at a point, she thought she just wasn’t worth loving, that her existence probably did not matter to anyone but God proved her wrong. She knows now that she is a recipient of the greatest love ever; God’s love. It overwhelms her and she knows she is very dear to Him, He sees as perfect, without blemish and she has learnt to see herselfin the light of His word.  Now she knows He cares about even the tiniest detail about her, He even knows the total number of the strands of hair she has. She is perfect in Him.
      There is one story left in this series and its about how little Ruth discovered God’s love for her. It comes up soon!