This post is titled 2015 because I couldn't think of any other title. I actually didn't think it through before I started announcing to people that I had an end of the year post coming up. So......now I'm staring at my laptop and hoping the words would come.i have to write about 2015, and I don't even know what to write. Have you ever been in a situation where you had so much to say but you couldn't form the words? well, if you have then you will understand me. This post is not a very serious one, so you can get a bottle of chilled coke and fried Christmas chicken if you still have leftovers but at the same time, I hope it helps someone. That's why I'm writing this.
So..... 2015. Hmmnnn... 2015. Damilola does not know where to start from oh. Many things happened in 2015, many many things. Many days of laughter, days of tears. Loved ones were born, some were lost. I remember how the year started, we didn't go to church as usual for the cross over service. We crossed over in our house. I remember my mom asking me to lead the praise worship and my dad leading prayers when it was almost 12 am. It was very awkward, I was just looking lost and when it was 12 am, we said "happy new year" and I went straight to my room and locked myself in as usual. I couldn't help saying to myself "what a way to start a New Year". Like every new exercise book you buy, the New Year came with many blank pages. Some I wrote beautifully on, some I didn't give much thought to. For me, 2015 shed more light on 2014 which was the year of my awakening and 2013, my birth year ( I don't know where that came from). But really, these words represent what those years really did for me, I mean spiritually .
I met beautiful people this year and several people blessed me. Please permit to make a shout out to them. God sent wonderful people my way, they have imparted me in ways that many of them do not even know. They are many but I'll just mention those that have helped me in relation with this blog.
. Bolade, the roommate, whether or not you know it, our paths crossed for a very important reason. God has taught me a lot through you, I love you more than words can express. There are several other people that I'll like to call one, ChrisrMind Family.. Oh.. My beautiful family, I can't even start here because i"ll just exceed the limit for the number of words I'm allowed here on expressing my love for this family, I'm forever changed because of you, you are the place of my moulding. Femi, you are just so wonderful. Dadesola, wonderful friend, I love you plenty sweetie. Your simply pure heart always inspires me. Your wonderful comments on my posts also make me want to write more, and they make me feel like I'm one big life changer (which I am). To my beautiful baby sisters, Tamilore and Tiwa, even though you two can't see this now,i hope you see it someday, momma loves you always and forever. Yoi have inspired several posts. Please forgive me if your name is not here, I love you and thank you. I also have to make a shout out to my classmates ooo, LLB Class of 2017, University of Ibadan., I love you!!!!!!. You are the best classmates, Kayode, Bolade, Mona (Enitan) , Kolade, Gbemi, oh.. Gbemisola dear, Leye, John, Mujib, everybody, you all made 2015. All those days in the LLT would be incomplete without Enitan's noise, Mujib's questions, Kunle's comments, Iyinoluwa's loud voice and without you all being there. Everyone that comes into your life is there for a reason. God will always teach you through them. You all are a part of me, lessons that I have been taught through you are part of what makes me. To my blog family, readers from everywhere, thank you so much, I love you And of course my baby was born in 2015. I started this blog this year and she is five months and three days old now, how fast they grow!
Now about New Year resolutions, if they work for you, please go ahead, make as many as possible.. But what's important is that you set goals, please seek God, let His will for 2016 become yours. Never set goals without seeking Him or they will be difficult to achieve, even if they are not, they won't count. This year I learnt to be totally dependent on God, He taught me. I remember a word I got in March concerning that and it has indeed been fulfilled. This year has also been a year of many emotions, I mean a lot, thank God for His grace.
I like to think I developed a better relationship with people this year and that I communicate better now. In 2014 I kept to myself a lot, 2013, I was in my own world. This year, the big picture got clearer, it can only get clearer. I can't write about 2015 and not mention love of course. Again, I thank God for beautiful people He has placed in my life, There are several other things I can't even remember now but this year, all worked for my good. I remember now that I resumed school terribly disappointed in myself(poor grades), I registered my courses with a heartache. i still don't understand how I was able to hide it very well, no one noticed something was wrong with me I always laughed (I laugh too much even in texts) but in the midst of my fears, I had an encounter with God that forever changed me.
2015...... I remember there were nights that I cried into my pillow trying hard not to wake my roommate, I cried myself to sleep, those nights I couldn't stop myself from loving God. Yes!! Like many others there were days I almost gave up but now like Kurt Carr I can sing that "He kept me" so I wouldn't let go and I can thank Him by singing like Amy Renee Miller "You are faithful ". Lord, you are faithful, you never give up on me, You are stable through every change that this life can bring, You in Me. This year saw the shattering and remoulding of my heart. This year had me admitting to myself that no matter how hard I try to ignore it, I am a young adult (please let me call myself that), in a university. I now understand that admitting your weakness only makes you stronger. No wonder the Bible says that he who keeps his life will lose it and he who let's it go will find it. It's just like the new birth, by inviting Christ into your life, you admit your weak state and you find your strength in Him. I said this post won't be too serious, I hope your coke is still chilled.
I remember when I started this year, my songs were more like "it all belongs to you " by Juanita Bynum and I'm ending it with songs like "Imela" by Nathaniel Bassey and Enitan Adaba. 2015 has been great (it's not gone yet) and for this year and every day of my life I am grateful to Him in whom I have my days. Thank you for being a part of my life, I love you.
See you in 2016!
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